We need a miracle

We are scheduled to see a specialist on Monday who has a plan for Paula. Our only hope for now. We are still trying very hard to get pfizer to release the drug to us directly, calling US head office and others. We are connected to many top ppl who can get it but it's so hard. We could be put on a trial for this drug but they run on different far from now dates all over the world. Also who knows if the drug will help as it's still being tested, and if it's the one we need!? Maybe the option on Monday will be better suited?

Until now God has helped us make the right decisions, I believe this time around will be the same. We simply will follow his direction, we just need to see the signs. For me Monday is way too far, I am afraid Paulinas fragile physical state will not follow her strong will and her motivated mind. How much can she take? Whats the limit? The constant fevers and dreadful cough took a toll on her visibly.

My fears creep in as I sit here in her hospital room beside her at midnight. I wonder how much more suffering she will have to go through. She doesn't deserve it-but again maybe there is a reason for all of this. Maybe she is going through all of this so we can learn from her to value our lifes more, to love more, to enjoy every second with our children, families, friends. We should love to live. To wake up everyday and be truly happy. If we aren't it's time to reorganize things so we are happy, even if it takes extreme measures.

All things aside, we need another miracle for Paulinka.

John Paul II in Heaven, give us your helping hand and lead us... We need you here with us again.

Wow, just read now: Today, the Vatican approved Our Popes John Paul II beatification.... I think with this promotion...our Pope is SURE to pull some strings with theBig Guy!!!! I think somebody heard me last night!