The past 2 months were horrible for us, One day they said cancer is back, the next day that maybe it isn’t, then they don’t know, then its probably something else but who knows what...crazy play with our sensitive spirits, completely broken down at times, but somehow we always found a way to get up and find a little burst of energy to fight. Times like Christmas motivate us and its the most beautiful time to look forward to. The thought of Christmas gave us hope and we are so blessed to finally feel Christmas everywhere!
Although it looks like our family was tortured this and last year and pounded with every evil power there is and we hardly have the energy to breathe sometimes - sometimes we wonder what life really is about, why is this happening, but we make sense in all of this and are very happy today anyways!!! I guess suffering is a major part of our lifes, at least now. Although it might sound crazy but got used to this suffering somehow, to the long exhausting days and sleepless fearful nights filled with the dark panic attacks, the constant hospital visits, checks, biopsies, talks...together as a loving family we can do this and and we know that it can only be better from now on! The sun has to shine again one day! We will beat this nameless bastard like a gong!
The Christmas Spirit is everywhere, our home shines inside, it is very cozy this year like never before although not much was done to it :))) We have a feeling of internal peace and happiness and we try to keep all the worries occupying our heads outside. The birth of little Jesus in 2 days will give us new hope, new beginning, pure love and a bright outlook into the future. The birth of a new life always is full of blessings...we should embrace it and we should not fear or worry. Let’s make this Christmas simple, pure, full of warmth and love of our closest people and families. Let’s cherish what we have in our homes, and do not wish for anything else. Just laugh, smile, be happy, celebrate, eat, drink, sing carols, be like a child, share a little present with others (don’t forget its from Santa! ;)...lets be happy and thankful for every little thing that we own...lets have the best Christmas ever!
konrad
konrad
marry christmas to all of you <3<3<3
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Wesolych Swiat i Szczesliwego Nowego Roku! Podziwiam Was za wasza walke, jestescie inspiracja dla wielu. Stay strong and never give up.
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Paulina, Konrad
ReplyDeletewhat a lovely video, Maya was singing along.
Yes, we can relate to the fear, the panic, the constant life with needles, tests, biopsies, but like you somehow these things have become part of life, and as a family we face it, we deal with it and we fight this horrible C. Yes, we cheerish all of those little moments in life, we grab onto it.
Paulina, you are such a fighter, a wonderful woman, we admire you and love you
Merry Christmas
Honest and real words, about life. You open my eyes when I read your posts. May the Christmas spirit remain in your home, and in your heart, this is the time for miracles to happen. You already have a miracle: your family, and the way you support, love and believe in each other.
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